Friday, November 6, 2009

No Shame

Have you ever had that feeling while watching a movie or a TV show when you become really embarrassed for one of the characters because of the awkward situation they are in? Even though it's all fake, you can't help but feel really uncomfortable for them. This happens to me a lot, and today it happened again...except this time it was not a fictional character I was embarrassed for. It was myself. I was distractedly watching TV/day dreaming and just started mentally going over moments and situations in my life. Make outs, guys I've dated, embarrassing moments, etc. When I came to some situations, I found myself literally cringing and covering myself with my blanket, as if doing so would erase that moment of ill judgement from my past. I will not specifically mention which memories I was thinking of, but some of you can probably pull from some of my outrageous moments and perhaps guess a few of the ones I might be talking about. There are several. What was I thinking? Why did I do that? How in the world did I feel that that was a good decision? Does that other person feel as awkward as I do? These were some of the questions flashing through my mind as I recounted moments from my past. I finally had to give myself a slight little slap to snap me out of my trip down memory lane. But, embarrassed as I may be about some of the things I've done, I know they make me who I am. And of course, made for good stories at the time that they occurred (and perhaps will continue making for an entertaining tale). No regrets?

2 comments:

Taylor said...

i do that all the time. and reading this just made me do it again. thanks a lot alexia. grrr heebie jeebies

Kassie said...

omg... i know exactly what you mean! i hate watching people getting embarrassed (on TV that is), and that mental shudder when its YOU is terrible... its not so bad when its a friend's embarrassment though... huh.. wonder why that is?

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